Did I shave my legs for this life

Take THAT Arise.com

2008-05-17T05:36:00.000-07:00

crank it up! This goes out to the lost SOB "company" arise.com and my ISP, TDS.net. You SUCK!

so far 2008-not so hot

2008-01-05T19:13:00.000-08:00

Ths year has to better than last year, right?? Please?
Ali Edwards has this one little word/ word of the year to help keep you focused and on track. My word is : achieve. I want to achieve something this year.
Maybe it's because I'm turning 40 in 4 months (ugh) but I need to make some changes. I want to lose those 20 lbs that seem to love me so much. I want to figure out what to do with my life. It's about time, doncha thing? I've always been a late bloomer, though.

So I've got a job. It's really been getting on my nerves. For one things, it's 25 miles one way so you figure it's nearly $7 in gas A DAY! For another, it's just not well run company. I could think of so many ways to make things better. Also, they've changed my hours to some evenings and I HATE that. I hate working nights. It just brings back bad memories of working those hours when I was alone, more broke than I am now, and just lonely.
So I've been working at getting a job working from home. Basically doing the same thing (customer service) but at home. I really want to do that. I'm basically waiting for an oppurtunity. But I get so impatient, it's not funny! But I was told at my job that there will be a chance for me to get a promotion. But some how I just wasn't excited about it. I guess because I've want to work from home for so long. I guess I'm tired of the rat race.
So I have to figure out how to do this. How am I going to make this work? How will I lose this weight? I know for me Atkins works. I'm never hungry. But if Husband isn't doing the same diet, it won't work. I know I need to excersise, it's just nearly impossible for me to when I'm working these insane hours.

That's why so far, these first 5 days of the year-eh. whatever.

my directorial debut

2007-11-04T09:07:00.000-08:00

before making martinis and watching the Colts pound New England, I decided my kitchen cabinets needed scrubbing. Madison wanted to watch so I pulled her high chair around and here's what happened:

25 weeks = 25 pounds

2007-09-19T17:22:00.000-07:00

I decided since I'll be 40!! in 2008, I want to make some changes, do the things I always talk and dream about.
First thing that came to mind: lose 25 pounds in 25 weeks. My b'day is May 1st. I'm about 130 lbs and 5" tall, so I'd be on target if I lost 25.
I have a few other goals, like get super organized, save $2500, and will make them into a mini album soon. But I wanted to post this now to keep myself accountable. YIKES! Atkins worked well for me, but it's hard to incorporate if dh is watching his weight because he does it by eating tons of chicken, fish and veggies. And Atkins is bacon bacon bacon. So we'll see. I need to decide this week what to do and how!
so excited.

the day today

2007-08-06T17:01:00.001-07:00

I had a pretty good day today. I started my new temp job, and everyone seems nice. It's kinda cool working a temp job because it's less pressure to get along, or really love the job.
It's pretty far from home, so that sucks. But there's some cool shopping around there including a scrapbook store, and a Goodwill outlet store. Can't wait to check them out.

hmmm

2007-07-31T05:52:00.000-07:00

Being unemployed, again, is weird. I always feel like I've forgotten to go to work or something. It's not as relaxing as I would have thought. I guess because of, you know, $$. And there's so much I want!! Cocoadaisy.com has a new kit for sale tomorrow featuring Kristi Contes! And I'm in dire need of a good sewing machine. I bought a $20 at Target and it has no directions and doesn't go in reverse!! So I'm going to return it. I've been stalking freecycle.org in hopes someone will have one they want to get rid of.

I do start a temp job Monday, so that's good. Of course my unemployment pay took months to get to me, and since I worked 4 days at that job from hell, I probably won't get any more. Again, don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to mooch off the state or anything. I just need a little bit to see me through! sigghh.

I'll be watching my stepgranddaughter today, so that'll be fun.

Later my tators.

Preppy the clips

2007-07-25T17:02:00.001-07:00

Preppy the clips
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

buy me at craftylisa.etsy.com

all 3 outside

2007-07-25T16:58:00.005-07:00

all 3 outside
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

more etsy

The Jennifer

2007-07-25T16:58:00.003-07:00

The Jennifer
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

also for etsy

Elvis wine charm 1

2007-07-25T16:58:00.001-07:00

Elvis wine charm 1
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

for my etsy shop

the winner is

2007-07-25T04:10:00.000-07:00

Dondrea!!! was the randomly picked comment!

Send me your deets to lisamk@tds.net, Dondrea. Also let me know what things you might like!

Thanks everyone. Check back often as I'll be doing another RAK SOON!!

some goodies

2007-07-24T12:23:00.001-07:00

Thanks for all the comments everyone. Can't wait to draw the name. I'm posting a picture of some things I just might include in the RAK!!

RAK

2007-07-23T03:03:00.000-07:00

I've been so blessed lately and got not one but TWO raks, I thought I'd "RAK it back!"
So leave a comment here and tell me which of the items in my etsy shop you like (if any ) and you'll be entered to win.

xoxo

Edited to add: I'll draw a name at random on Wednesday at 7am!! (that's pretty specific, huh?)

Etsy is the new Ebay

2007-07-22T18:40:00.000-07:00

to me anyway!!
I've opened up on etsy. Check it out here: www.craftylisa.etsy.com
I'm kind of excited about it! Just something to do to pass the time!

xoxo

I do pretty good.

2007-07-17T15:37:00.000-07:00

I do ok when it comes to dealing with the miscarriage. I don't think about it alllll the time like I had been. But sometimes it occurs to me that I'd be halfway thru the pregnancy right now. I feel robbed of all the experience. The first time we felt it kick. the birth. naming him.
things can sure turn on a dime.

Another DAre 69

2007-07-16T16:57:00.001-07:00

Another DAre 69
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

New music

2007-07-16T15:56:00.000-07:00

so I quit that job. It was not a good fit. Sat there for hours doing nothing, the guy must be a total micromanager. Supposed to be getting unemployment $, supposedly sent July 12 but I haven't gotten it yet. Don't get me wrong I'm not a "oh I'll mooch off the state for a while". I just want to take my time. But it's scary, you know.
I've been trying to be good, not eat from boredom, enjoy myself, scrap some. I'm uploading some layouts now, too.

enjoy the new video, too (see below, allll the way at the bottom).Have no idea why I like the song, but I do!!

RAK

2007-07-08T16:01:00.003-07:00

RAK
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

Rak goodness from this girl: http://myownlilspace.blogspot.com/

sisters!

2007-07-08T16:01:00.001-07:00

sisters!
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

haha

Grateful

2007-07-06T06:47:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get lazy and forget I have so much to be thankful for. Even w/ all we've been through this year (topped off by Husband having to serve on a murder trial jury last week! It was a brutal one, too) I still have so much to be thankful for.

1-My immediate family is healthy
2-Husband who's work ethic is awesome, he takes such good care of me!
3-Step daughters and granddaughter who turned out pretty darn good
4- A home that despite its faults, is ours
5-a little money in the bank
6-getting together w/ family for mini bachelorette party tonight!
7-I have a job that pays well to start on Monday. It will be a good job, and I will be able to enjoy it!

new clothes

2007-07-06T06:45:00.001-07:00

new clothes
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

Can't wait to wear the shoes!!

I guess I have a job

2007-06-30T14:52:00.001-07:00

I guess I have a job. I went for a second interview, then they called and said I was their #1 choice but it could be days or weeks before they could finalize an offer. Partly due to paperwork, etc and partly because of the holiday coming up. So they offered to let me come in under Kelly services just so I could get started sooner. They don't know how much they'll be able to offer me when I come on permanently yet, or what the shift would be. It may be 11-8 which I will TOTALLY hate. I should know more Monday. They pay thru the Kelly thing is very good, so I'm thrilled with that. In fact, I'm going to have to do some shopping because I have no summer clothes anymore!

tiger swallowtail

2007-06-30T14:51:00.001-07:00

tiger swallowtail
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

he was beautiful

huh?

2007-06-25T16:21:00.000-07:00

I had a second interview for a job today. It's a very long story but once upon a time I worked w/ someone and she keyed my sisters car not knowing it was her car then bragged to me about it. So she got fired. I had to interview with her. today. for this job. that i need. Ugh. Don't know if she knows I was the one who "told" on her or what but she seemed cool. And I think the interview went well. We'll see. I really want this other job I had to do the presentation for and I haven't heard from them. Last week they said when I checked back w/ them that they hoped to narrow it down to two finalist, then have them back for another interview. and so it goes.
I'm going to work out now. I totally don't want to. We're getting pool water tomorrow so maybe I can lay out!!

face off

2007-06-22T06:50:00.001-07:00

S5000004_0002
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

Don't worry, he won't bite and I had a grip on his right front leg

unemployed, day??

2007-06-22T06:41:00.000-07:00

I feel just like I did a couple of years ago when I was looking for a job. It was this same time of year and I was so bored. Now that things are setteling down from all that's been going on, it's finally setting in that I have no job.
I have had 2 interviews, one for a job I'd probably like a lot, the other for a job I'm not sure about. I hate sitting and waiting to hear from them. Very frustrating. I'm even bored of surfing the internet and a little bored of watching tv and scrapbooking.
I've been keeping my step granddaughter some, and that's been a blast. So there has been some good from this. I'll post a pic in a minute of her.

June 16

2007-06-16T18:54:00.001-07:00

June 16
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

Peace?

2007-06-16T18:46:00.000-07:00

We're so numb now, we don't know what to do. My mother in law died Wednesday (on my stepdaughters birthday). It was just Husband and me with her as chance would have it.
This has just been surreal. Her pastor said we could talk during the service or write something and he'd read it. This is what I had him read:

Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her. Proverbs 31:28

After I met Eunice for the first time Chris asked her what she thought of me. She said “I think she was raised right”. Any parent will tell you that’s a big compliment.

Small things meant so much to her like a good deal at a garage sale, or some thing funny one of her grand kids said to her, or holding her poodle, Prince, on her lap while sitting outside.

Eunice wasn’t much for watching a lot of t.v., but she did like CNN and Home Shopping Network. In fact, her love of Home Shopping Network made me get hooked on watching that channel.

We’ll try hard to remember everything we can about Eunice, like her homemade macaroni and cheese, her BLT sandwiches, her peanut butter fudge, her blue eyes and her smile.
Eunice was the most agreeable person I’d ever met. In the hospital not long ago a nurse asked her how she’d slept the night before. Eunice, even though she was very sick and in pain, said “Fine. How did you sleep?”

She was proud of her family, and proud to be a Christian. I’m honored to say I knew Eunice.
I told her right before she died I wanted to be just like her.
Our world is a little sadder now that she’s gone, but a better place because she has been here and touched so many lives.

circle of life

2007-06-11T17:12:00.000-07:00

Man,I'm so over it. MIL has been in and out of hospital and nursing home since Christmas. She's 83. Wednesday night in the ER they said "it's time. gather the troops" So we did. They took her off the bypap (she has a DNR order) and we waited. And prayed for her comfort. They said it would be minutes or hours. That was nearly a week ago.
I know this sounds horrible but enough, Lord. This is enough. She's totally unresponsive and only on morphine. She can't communicate.
She's in a hospice here in Indy. It's very nice.
How much more am I supposed to take? Are we all supposed to take. I just don't know how much more emotions we can handle.
I try to realize when it's time it's time, nothing we can do. But seeing my husband reduced to a bundle of nerves and emotions, it's heartbreaking.

At one point in the hospice room my stepdaughter was changing her 5 month olds diaper. It was just a bunch of woman in the room by chance. And I said "here it is, the circle of life". We were all there.
I just prayer for some peace for us all.

you know what

2007-06-06T09:33:00.000-07:00

I've been nervous about this stupid presentation I have to give. Immediately when he asked me to come back and do it I thought "I will not be nervous because it's no big deal one way or the other!!"But of course, here I am, shaking already.
I'm not going to do it. This is stupid to be this nervous. I don't know how I'll do. I'm sure I'll deliver the material ok, I just don't know how they'll 'grade' me. I don't even care, I just want it over!!

10:25 am already wiped out

2007-06-04T07:25:00.000-07:00

Today Husband is off work because he was not getting lasik eye surgery, already had that about 5 years ago, but getting the 'enhancement' done. Like extended maintanence. So I had to go with because you can't drive after that.
Well first I need to go back to about 2 weeks ago. my last day of my job and I leave to head home and stop for gas. Then the Monterro wouldn't start. Just out of the blue, there I was after getting gas and nothing. I couldn't get ANYONE to answer their phone to come get me. I kept trying to start it and it finally started. Weird. It hasn't happened since until last Friday when Husband was driving. He got out and looked and said the cables were dirty and loose. He messed w/ them and it started right up.
Today he cleaned them before we left for the eye appt and it kept dieing everytime we came to a stop sign. over and over. We were ok once on the interstate, and it kept starting after it died, too. So I was worried about getting home. But we're here now. He bitched about my driving all the way home!! I'm a good driver, darn it!
Don't want to get a new car because it would mean payments and no way am I going there! And this car has a lot of life left in it, you know? I like it, Husband hates it because it rides rough.
hate car trouble.
And I'm working on a presentation for a second interview for a job. My only thing about this is they have internal candidates, so why would they hire me? Why would I go through all this worry for the presentation just to find out they hired from within? I feel like cancelling it. Most everyone is saying no don't do that. And I guess I'd regret it if I didn't at least try. I wish it was just a second interview, not a presentation. oh brother.

scrapjack june 2

2007-06-02T11:28:00.001-07:00

scrapjack june 2
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit

Maybe not so cheery

2007-05-28T08:43:00.000-07:00

I don't know what's wrong with me today. I'm so blue. Blue doesn't begin to describe how I feel. I know I'm nervous about my interview, but not so much so.
Maybe it's MIL being in ICU again. That makes us sad.
Husband was in such a good mood this morning I had to ruin it. He wanted kids to come over for cookout and I'm just not up for it. It's not as easy as just having people over. There's massive cleaning that would need to be done and food to be prepared. All of which I hate. I know I'm selfish.

time to cheer up and cheer on

2007-05-27T12:22:00.000-07:00

So the happier tune-age on my blog here!
I have an interview Tuesday! for a job I think I'd really like. I've been brushing up on interview questions (what was a challenge you faced at your last job...etc). So prayers upward please. But if I don't get it, it's ok.
I've been spending money like I've got it! haha. We mostly have been running around to the hospital to see MIL and doing errands then to save gas. But then we're starving and stop and drop $25-30 for a meal. Such a waste. But again, it's all good.
What's good in your world?

Unemployed day 4

2007-05-24T11:08:00.000-07:00

This is getting to me already, being unemployed. I've been on the internet a lot, I'm such a loser!
Husband is on the barn roof trying to fix it. This is about his 5th straight day at it. I feel so bad for him. I don't know what I can do to help him. I try to just stay out of the way.
He's on vacation next week, too. I'm hoping we can go away somewhere for fun! But don't know if that'll happen.

why 2007 is the year that kicked my ass.

2007-05-17T13:46:00.000-07:00

So far we've had about 4 trips to ER for MIL, one trip in January to ER for me w/ migraine, one pregnancy (me) which as you know ended in miscarriage, my company got bought out and my last day is tomorrow, stepdaughter had a baby (that was a good thing though!!) and I've gained like 15 pounds.
That's why I'm throwing myself a New Years Party next week! I'm ready to move on already.

so much has

2007-04-23T16:53:00.000-07:00

happened.
The last time I posted I literally must have been getting pregnant. Well, not while I was posting, but you get the idea.
We've been married 13 years and haven't used birth control in probably 10 years. And when I never got pregnant I just finally decided if that was the hand God dealt me, who am I to question it? that was, until I got pregnant.
I found out around St. Patricks Day. And for a month we were in a daze. I mean, wow, after all these years. Not to mention my husband is 46 and I'll be 39 next week. I was liking the idea, but after the first week, I was sick every day. Literally. I couldn't wait until the first trimester was over because I kept hearing it got better!
Then we went for our first appointment. I vaguely knew what to expect. The first thing that happened was on the way there we found out my MIL was being taken from her nursing home to the ER. She's 83, and this has happened probably 3 times in the past 6 months. So it wasn't a total shock.
But then we get the appointment and they have me do the regular ultrasound. I didn't realize I should be listening for a heartbeat. I knew we'd probably hear it. Then she had me pee after she did the regular u/s. She wanted to do the other kind of u/s where they insert some kind of stick you know where. Still nothing. Things were showing up on the computer. I could tell she was snapping some pictures. Then after literally about 40 seconds, she said "Ok, I'm going to have you get dressed and have you talk to the nurse". I'm still oblivious and it's not sinking in that we didn't hear a heartbeat. As I was getting dressed I commented to dh that it was really fast. She didn't ask me any questions or anything.
Then she has us wait in another room for a minute for the nurse. I'll never forget the nurse coming and introducing herself and saying "I wish we were meeting under better circumstances. But you probably realized there was no heartbeat, and we should have heard one at this point".
I still can't believe it. What a cruel joke. My first thought was Please let me try again. And it all happened so fast. I kept asking if they were sure.
We both have gone through so many emotions. I had to have a DNC. I came out of anestegia ( i know that's spelled wrong)crying. The worse part was probably seeing the baby things we'd gotten. I knew there was a big chance this could happen, as it's so common, plus my age. But I never really thought it would happen.
My poor husband. He had to call people and let them know because I couldn't. I told dh to tell people not to call because I couldn't talk, I was too hysterical. I almost wish I hadn't said that because I think it pushed people away. But I was just too distraught.
He's been great, but it's obvious he's sort of spent emotionally.
It's just so weird, after all this time we get pregnant and then lose it. I mean, what possible reason could there be for this? I try to be strong but...
I don't know if stress can cause this but it sure has been stressful at work, plus just dealing w/ being so sick. And having to see that people had attitudes of "suck it up" when it came to how I was feeling. All the while, I was losing the baby.

why I scrapbook

2007-02-14T11:24:00.001-08:00

why I scrapbook
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit.

I stole this idea from twopeasinabucket.com

The journaling says:

So I won’t forget the names
and the faces (like she has)

So my stories won’t be trapped inside

(like hers are)

So my family will always know
just how much I love them (like hers does)

Chris, Eunice and Madison. January 2007.
This was the first time Madison and her great-grandma Eunice met.

check me out!

2007-02-14T11:20:00.000-08:00

I got music on my blog!! It was as easy as copy and paste.
And here's to living like you're dieing.

No way

2007-02-13T11:10:00.000-08:00

No way! Shut up! Not only did someone comment on my blog but it was no other than THE Dawn Falcone! She's the queen of garlic, and I am but a lowly lady in waiting!

damn taxes

2007-02-09T14:01:00.000-08:00

$1500 in taxes we owe. damn! How can that be? We're honest good people and we owe more than I make in 3 weeks? damn IRS. I'm moving to Canada.

Feb 6, 2007

2007-02-06T16:35:00.001-08:00

Feb 6, 2007
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit.

I like how this picture turned out!

Sparky in the snow

2007-02-06T16:34:00.001-08:00

Sparky in the snow
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit.

Look how deep it is!!

it's so cold

2007-02-05T16:56:00.000-08:00

sub zero weather here. It's 4 degrees right now.
I don't think anyone reads my blog. Let me find out. I hate Wal-Mart. There you have it. It stinks in it, it's dirty, the bathrooms are the worst I've ever seen, and what the FUCK is up w/ all the hee haws celebrating beign there? They stop in the damn aisle to gab about someone's ass boil problem in their town. Everyone who goes there SUCKS.
haha

Momtini

2007-02-02T15:34:00.001-08:00

Wow. So there's a big hubbub about moms drinking when kids are around. WTF? so lame. google suburban bliss for info.

Emergency room arm

2007-01-30T17:12:00.001-08:00

Emergencyc room arm
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit.

I was sick Sunday, so sick I was literally writhing on the floor in pain from a migrain. I finally gave in after 8 hours or so of this and went to the ER. First time in my life I had to do that for myself!
They pumped full of good drugs and 2 hours later I was on my way. We've been in the ER every other week since Christmas. VERY unusual for us, thank goodness. but you can see where they put the IV in. Picture doesn't do it justice.

My husband was so good to me though. Held my hand, took care of me, went to the drugstore when we were trying to get rid of the migrain w/ OTC goodies. He's a good guy, even if he did 'rip one' when one of the doctors came in to talk to him. GROSS!

2007-01-22T13:38:00.000-08:00

This is baby Madison after her first bath at home. She looks like an alien. But an alien I'm in love with!!

Iron Scrapbooker America

2007-01-18T16:57:00.000-08:00

Ok, so you know Iron Chef America? What about Iron Scrapbooker America.
Picture it, 2 contestants (picture Heidi Swapp vs. Stacy Julian ) show up w/ 10 pics and some card stock. They unveil a secret ingrediant (ribbons, or brads or rub ons). And compete to create a page!
I love it. I should copyright it!

work bites

2007-01-17T19:09:00.000-08:00

Work bites, thus the title. We're closing in May and you'd think my job would get easier. No, not s'much. thanks to slugs, slackers and the like, I keep getting dumped on. And there's no means to an end. No point in working hard, we're getting what we're getting. So I may as well blow it off, right?

Big Picture Scrapbooking

2007-01-15T16:28:00.000-08:00

I'm loving this class at Big Picture Scrapbooking called Library of Memories. I thought it would be a lot about organizing and it is. But it's all about thinking a new thought and letting go of the guilt. While going through my pictures I realize there are years with very few pictures. I think it was due to my depression. I just couldn't imagine wanting to relive any of that so I didn't take pictures.
Starting in 2000 I got help and I started scrapping. I started taking butt loads of pictures.
I, of course, still battle the depression but I'm so lucky that I feel so much better now!
Even with all that's been going on, I still feel better and more hopeful now than I did then.
Thank goodness!

M the baby

2007-01-15T16:27:00.001-08:00

Madison
Originally uploaded by Irockandyouknowit.

ahh the good life. That's husband, baby M, and stepdaughter J

two steps forward, 4 steps back

2007-01-13T15:59:00.000-08:00

wow. big shit going. Stepdaughter, J, had her baby January 9th. Named her M. She did really well and they're both home now. M had to be in NICU for 2 or 3 days because of a possible infection. But it's all good now.
MIL is very sick though. Had bladder infection, dehyration. And she's 83 so she's just getting old. It's going up and down and this roller coaster of emtions is getting to me. But I must say, holding a newborn is a great cure for the blues.
I also had to go with my Lexapro this whole time because of running out and there was confusion on my dosage etc etc. not pretty.
here's to calmer days ahead (please, God?)

2007-01-07T15:41:00.000-08:00

ha ha haaaa haaa. Saw this while in the loo at Babies R Us. It says Hiny Hider!!

more pics and tetnus

2007-01-06T13:40:00.000-08:00

I got a splinter in my foot Tuesday night some how. I'm kind of a wimp when it comes to splinters. Husband, C, tried to get it out and so did I. It felt like it was still in there. Finally went to the dr. He poked around (and even gave me props for sitting so still!)and thinks it was already out. He insisted, however, that I get a tetnus shot. Here's the result:

I mean, come on! That's not normal!! That's my arm!! not my boob!

New Year

2007-01-02T18:30:00.000-08:00

I'm going to do the Photo 365
Here's Jan 1st
And this is today, Jan 2nd

Hey fat bee-otch at Michaels

2006-10-08T18:11:00.000-07:00

By yourself some hand sanitizer and kleenexes would you?
Nasty.

time of year

2006-08-13T13:24:00.000-07:00

I really like this time of year. It's getting cooler, school's starting again (not that I have kids).
sigh.
And scrapbook season is just around the corner.

heat

2006-07-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

Finally it's a lot cooler than it has been. We didn't wake up to soup outside this morning. It's 67 and breezy! Feels like falls coming and I can't wait.

I can't breath

2006-06-25T11:54:00.000-07:00

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My stepdaughter is 24, unmarried and yep, you guessed it, pregnant. I'm freaked out a bit. She doesn't have insurance either.
She's been engaged for about 2 months. We really like her fiance. well, a lot less now.
shit. her whole life is changed now. I've never been pregnant.

sick days

2006-06-19T15:34:00.000-07:00

I hate calling in sick. I ALWAYS go through horrible guilt, depression, and paranoia when I do. So on top of being sick, I'm going insane.
I got a promotion now I'm all worried they'll take it away from me. I only called in once in January, once in April, and today. That's seems like not that much, but is it? I should have just gone to work!

got a promotion

2006-06-14T15:41:00.000-07:00

I got the job I had to give a presentation for!! Can you believe it? I keep thinking they'll change their minds or something. I got a nice raise ( almost $7000 more a year). I'll be salaried, which I've never been before.

Are there no new ideas?

2006-06-10T19:12:00.000-07:00

So I told you the snowflake theory, and how it showed up in a book I read. Then I got a book called Why Girls are Weird, and it's all about this woman who writes a bunch of stuff on her website, gets a Dooce-like following, and it's all made up?
Yes, I had the same idea 6 or 7 months ago!! A friend said "There are no new ideas. It's all been done"
Shit.
And the book, Why Girls are Weird, it's really funny!! Much funnier than I could be.

Thursday

2006-06-01T16:12:00.000-07:00

Got some things I ordered from Scrapsupply.com in the mail. LOVE it! Nothing like gettin' new supplies to renew my energy for the hobby.

what'd you suppose this means?

2006-05-31T14:37:00.000-07:00

I interviewed for a new position at my job last week. I didn't think it was my most shining moment. I swear the CEO snickered at one or 2 of my answers. Ok...
I've asked around and think I was definitely considered for the job from the beginning. and we have to give a presentation next week as part two or something sick like that. But today my supervisor said something about I guess it won't be long until I'm not your supervisor anymore. I was all "do you know something I don't know?" and he said "I'm not saying anything. I just noticed you weren't on the new schedule. ...". I didn't really know what to say. I mean, I haven't even given the presentation. And he isn't the most reliable source of information. but man it sure would be nice to get the job!

Snowflakes take two

2006-05-30T15:31:00.000-07:00

So you know how they say no two snowflakes are the same? Well how do we know that? Is there someone watching each and every snowflake in the world? I just can't believe with the infinite amount of snowflakes that fall there aren't 2 similar enough to be considered identical.
You know what's funny about that? I swear I thought of that all on my own. Then I read this book (think it was Sushi for Beginners) and there was a comedian in it who said the same thing!!